First few days...

Well, we're here. We got in around 11:45 Saturday night. Car is still loaded with all my things. Nowhere to really put them yet. It's been a real struggle to be happy. It was a struggle at home too, but at least I had Alesha to hug and encourage me. I keep asking, 'Lord, what is it that you want me to learn?' There has to be something. I don't think I've done anything wrong so, it has to be a learning curve. (sigh) It is interesting that while I find it hard to be happy, anger comes so easily. I don't ever remember being this angry in my entire life. It could be something as simple as I missed my turn and have to go to the next exit, or I can't figure out where to park. It all makes me SO angry, then I'm angry that I'm angry because I know that's not right.

Granny was telling Thomas and I about some churches around here that are non-denominational. Hopefully we'll get to go check one out this Wednesday. I am dreading the search, but I know we have to go. Kinda like finding a job, actually. I want a job but I'm dreading the search. I need to get Corey (ok, Shelly) and have him mail us the Sunday services. Won't take the place of going but at least it will be some familiarity. Might not be able to listen to them without weeping for a while, but...

Thomas and I went into Beaumont today and I got registered for classes. I had to take what they had available schedule wise... Not too happy about my schedule. Most unhappy about not being able to take College Algebra yet. Had I stayed at Weatherford, I would have been able to go to college alg, but here I have one more semester of remedial alg. Pretty bummed about that... Oh well... whatcha gonna do? Will be awarded my financial aid this week sometime and school starts next Monday. Here's my schedule, it's kinda yucky...

Tue and Thu 8-9:15 Developmental Alg II

Tue 6-8:45pm Composition II (in Lumberton)

Wed 6-8:45pm Philosophy of Knowledge (really bummed cause it's church night)

Tue and Thu 11-12:15 Introduction to Theater

Feels like I'm all over the place and in my mind I had all morning classes and I was going to work in the evening... Totally having to retrain my thought process... Good news is that on the 7th at 5pm, they are dropping everyone for nonpayment and I can get online and see what classes I can move around and maybe get all my classes earlier in the day... other than my math, Blech! I didn't want an 8 O'clock class again... but... I'm trying really hard not to complain. I'm grateful to be in school and progressing towards my degree.

Well, I made chicken soup for dinner and it's ready. Guess, I need to go eat even though I'm not hungry at all.

Miss you all and I'll do my best to blog daily. Please leave comments!!! I'm going to try and use this rather than wearing quite so many emotions on my sleeve on facebook.

Thanks for reading and I can't wait to see where this goes! ;)